Growth

I really think that I’ve grown so much in the year that I haven’t been here.

In that time not only have I graduated college with my degree in Sociology, but I finally know what I want to do with my life. YES, it toom awhile but I’m finally here & the only thing I can do right now is move forward. Now that I finally know what I’m destined to do.

Something that is also important to growth is individual growth, personal growth if you will..I woke up this morning & the first thing I did was open Instagram. Now that isn’t anything unusual for me. I am a millennial & I do have my fair share of social media, but specifically I checked HER social media. The woman I have posted about previously. The one I will always love because she well she’s…HOME.

Maybe this sounds odd to some people. But if everybody was honest with themselves they would admit that they do it. Ya know..check someone’s page that they know but are not necessarily following. So no I’m not some sort of stalker I just check it periodically because we’re not exactly in contact (I might explain later) & there are many days where I just want to see of there’s anything new with her. Just to see if she’s happy because I know the last time I checked she wasn’t.

So anyway…that’s what I did. Usually when I check there are no New posts. But this time there was a difference. The picture was her and her significant other. Now I know what you guys are thinking. Hell even I was thinking it. Even this time last year I would have been so upset, but I wasn’t this time. And do you know why that was? It was all because of that beautiful smile. Although she’s with someone else right now. I’m not angry, I’m not sad, I still miss her, but I’m happy because her smile….makes me smile.

I partly know why that smile is there because I know her. She is smiling because she’s doing something that makes her happy and I could never be jealous or mad at that.

I’m not going to be unrealistic here, I don’t like to see her with anyone else. She is and will always be the love of my life. She is the one that feels like home. I know that I will love her for as long as I live. I live for that smile. I’m glad that she is smiling, so when I saw those pictures I smiled.

She is still as beautiful as ever. And, as I write this a couple of tears rolled down my cheek, not tears of sadness, but tears of happiness because I know that sometimes she struggles with being happy too.

I know she’ll find her way back to me. I know it. I have faith in that. We’ll never be too far from each other.

So here’s to growth! Because in less than a year I have grown so much. I know what real love is because whether we’re up or down. We always wish the best for each other.

Written by your favorite hopeless romantic