I want us to be together. Which means it pains me to see her with someone else. She’s my sunshine. She’s my life partner. That’s expected. I don’t expect the world to stop, but I don’t expect her to freeze me out either.
I want us to grow, and become the best people we can be. I want us to be strong , successful and prosperous together. Since I can’t have all that right now…. I just want to be able to talk to her once in awhile. I just wanna know that once in a while I can hear her voice or once in a while we can call each other & see how each other are doing.
I definitely have my insecurities, but I don’t doubt that I belong with her, and she belongs with me. I have a lot to work on. I have my flaws but she means the world to me. That won’t ever change .
I’m just going through a tough time right now, and I wish she could kiss me on the forehead and tell me everything is going to be okay. I wish I could tell her about my problems and then fall asleep in her arms. At the least I wish I could hear her voice.
Since I can’t it gets hard. Especially knowing that she’s with someone who has more money, more stability, a child. It scares me and sometimes I get insecure because she has things that I don’t. I mean I’ve never been reassured so….my mind wanders.
You see but the thing is. Even with all that. It’s not what we have. July 2014 I met the love of my life. Nobody can take that away from me. I’m grateful for finding her. Separation from anybody else wouldn’t feel like this…
I hope she knows that no matter how many times I get mad at her. The love I have for her is unconditional. It’s never wavered and it won’t. I also hope she knows that she has hurt me & I deserve an apology for some of the things she’s done.
We’re finding ourselves…I just wish we’d do it together, or maybe that defeats the purpose.
I miss her so much. I yearn for her presence.
That being said I love her eternally, wholeheartedly, and unconditionally and that will never change.
I’m glad to have found someone I can & will love forever. I just wish she were here for me now.
This is real. This is eternal. We’ll always find our way back to each other ❤